After work I felt very exhausted (as I am sitting down now I can feel exhaustion creeping up on me). I had plans to go with Victoria to dinner and a movie at the dollar theatre (okay, so the weekend rate is $2 but better than the usual $8 price at a regular theatre). After some yummy Cafe Rio we went and saw the movie The Vow. I cried like a baby in that movie. Then on the way home, I rolled down the windows of my car and played 30 Seconds to Mars A Beautiful Lie album. These two unlikely genres got me thinking about a lot of things.
1) In the movie, the characters talk of following your heart and taking risks.
2) 30 Seconds to Mars always makes the quote "be outside of your comfort zone or you will never be able to create something amazing.
So, the drive home, I thought of new creative projects to work on. Stay tuned!
Friday, May 4, 2012
Thursday, May 3, 2012
Motivation? We Shall See...
I woke up this morning feeling refreshed and ready to go...at 5am! I know, strange since I didn't finish my shower and get to bed until about 1am (back to the surviving off of 4-5 hours of sleep deal again?). However, I knew I would be exhausted in the middle of work so I fought to urge to get up and do something, but now I am wondering if I should have spend that time exercising. I already posted my goal of hitting a 1k in under seven minutes (if possible) but I want to have a more consistant exercise plan. So, I have decided to come up with a reward system. I weighed myself this morning. Now, for my height I am not "fat" per say but I am on the higher end of the weight scale.
I am going to try and think of a reward by tomorrow so I have something to work towards!
For now I will sleep!
I am going to try and think of a reward by tomorrow so I have something to work towards!
For now I will sleep!
Wednesday, May 2, 2012
Neverending Work
I finally finished my graduation plan...well, most of it. I have an assignment from my counselor to have some back up options in case things go wrong, such as not getting a high enough grade or finding it is not available for the planned term. That, though, will come later. I have BIG goals and plans for myself and my education! But all that will reveal itself in due time! I have a plan for a blog involving all that shenanigans!
Even though I have had a rather productive evening, I still have a lot of work to do over the next few days. My goal is to have my room relatively cleaned and everything sorted by Saturday evening (Sunday morning at the earliest). I say relatively because I know it will not be to where I had planned to have it for a while. But I would like it presentable. I am amazed though at how much junk I didn't need. I have already gone through my recycle box four times (I have a box under my desk that I use for recycling, usually paper). I have gone through several trash bags and have a feeling the upcoming garage sale could present a nice bit of money for me! Here's to hoping! It just feels like there is always work to be done. On my to-do list, right after cleaning my room (and sorting and organizing) I have the phrase "thoroughly clean the bathroom" listed. This means to find ways to hide everything on the counter and sink since I probably have one of the smaller bathrooms in the house and share it with the guest bedroom and any potential guest.
So, the work is never ending, but at least I have a few things completed! Now, here is to hoping things turn out better! I plan on giving an update tomorrow about what was accomplished. Maybe this time I will actually do some exercising and get myself into shape!
I think some me time is calling! Good night!
Even though I have had a rather productive evening, I still have a lot of work to do over the next few days. My goal is to have my room relatively cleaned and everything sorted by Saturday evening (Sunday morning at the earliest). I say relatively because I know it will not be to where I had planned to have it for a while. But I would like it presentable. I am amazed though at how much junk I didn't need. I have already gone through my recycle box four times (I have a box under my desk that I use for recycling, usually paper). I have gone through several trash bags and have a feeling the upcoming garage sale could present a nice bit of money for me! Here's to hoping! It just feels like there is always work to be done. On my to-do list, right after cleaning my room (and sorting and organizing) I have the phrase "thoroughly clean the bathroom" listed. This means to find ways to hide everything on the counter and sink since I probably have one of the smaller bathrooms in the house and share it with the guest bedroom and any potential guest.
So, the work is never ending, but at least I have a few things completed! Now, here is to hoping things turn out better! I plan on giving an update tomorrow about what was accomplished. Maybe this time I will actually do some exercising and get myself into shape!
I think some me time is calling! Good night!
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
No Distress Calls Here...Right?
Happy May Day everyone!
It is weird to think that the 2012 year is a quarter of the way completed. I have been extremely busy this last week.
I finished finals on Wednesday and have spent the time working 8:30am-5pm at Craft Supplies. I have been wokring those hours everyday since that time and always come home tired. Plus, I have had some deadlines to keep and have been up late many nights to fulfill said deadlines (I know what all are thinking...why am I up so stinking late now writing in my blog and not going to bed?). I guess that is where I am in my life at the moment though. I have a feeling that for a while I will be tired. I will drag myself out of bed and face the day of school and work, staying up late cleaning, doing homework, and all sorts of crazy stuff and be grateful I have a bed to sleep on during those times...and I don't think anything will let up for a while.
Something that I have been doing recently is generating a grauation plan. At the moment it just looks very daunting to me. Even if I keep my credit load to 12 credits, I have tough classes a head of me. I have huge goals and BIG plans but I tell you, it is going to be a long haul.
I have had time to think about life. I was unable to sleep for a 2 hour span between the hours of 2am and 4am, but it was a productive 2 hours of not sleeping. I realized that I may never get adequate sleep, just, what I call survival sleep from here on out. I am amazed when people tell me that got 7 hours of sleep. I can generally function relatively normal on 4-5 hours of sleep. Some nights I am not so lucky to even get 4 hours. I have a mind that thinks and processes best when I am just laying down. I thin some of my dreams are the product of my brain attempting to sort out all kind of information. A few nights ago, I had an awful nightmare that I had failed out of school and lost sight of my goals...but within the nightmare some revelations came about that I do not intend to share at the moment. These were things I had been contemplating for a while and made some amazing realizations. So, I guess not all of the dream was bad. Anyways, I was last night for two hours and made another realization that even when I do get down time (like now), I feel a need to remain busy. My down time rarely lasts long. Maybe, I should take some advice and spend one of these summer Saturdays reading a book outside and soaking up the sun! I know that I will have some opportunities to go home early from work and school...maybe I will go home and find time for my niece this summer...just the two of us in the backyard on a nice summer day! Even when I graduate, I will still be working, unless by some miracle I marry a VERY wealthy man, or being a mom to someone (my kids or assisting in some way to the rearing of other children...or even people...more on that philosophy later). I am not making sense anymore but it makes sense to me. Maybe it is a sign to go to bed soon?
I promised in the last blog (or two) to talk of my exercise progress. Funny it should be mentioned, simply due to the fact that the Sunday School lesson at church was on Provident Living and included a challenge to improve our physical health throught proper diet and exercise. Does walking at work count? Because I do. I walk up and down aisles to pick orders and stock items. I think it counts! Anywho, the other day I timed myself for a 1k run (I know...only running 0.62 miles is not impressive, but I have start somewhere, right?). According to my iPod I am averaging a 12 minute mile, which I am not happy about I would love 10 minutes or less. My time for my first 1k was 7 minutes and 57 seconds. I plan on being in the 6 minute range by mid-May *crosses fingers.*
Okay, now it is definitely time for bed. I will catch you all later!
P.S. Can I just say, having a former student of mine text me after she read previous blog about my woes with colorguard made my day! She sent a great one too and I still have it!
It is weird to think that the 2012 year is a quarter of the way completed. I have been extremely busy this last week.
I finished finals on Wednesday and have spent the time working 8:30am-5pm at Craft Supplies. I have been wokring those hours everyday since that time and always come home tired. Plus, I have had some deadlines to keep and have been up late many nights to fulfill said deadlines (I know what all are thinking...why am I up so stinking late now writing in my blog and not going to bed?). I guess that is where I am in my life at the moment though. I have a feeling that for a while I will be tired. I will drag myself out of bed and face the day of school and work, staying up late cleaning, doing homework, and all sorts of crazy stuff and be grateful I have a bed to sleep on during those times...and I don't think anything will let up for a while.
Something that I have been doing recently is generating a grauation plan. At the moment it just looks very daunting to me. Even if I keep my credit load to 12 credits, I have tough classes a head of me. I have huge goals and BIG plans but I tell you, it is going to be a long haul.
I have had time to think about life. I was unable to sleep for a 2 hour span between the hours of 2am and 4am, but it was a productive 2 hours of not sleeping. I realized that I may never get adequate sleep, just, what I call survival sleep from here on out. I am amazed when people tell me that got 7 hours of sleep. I can generally function relatively normal on 4-5 hours of sleep. Some nights I am not so lucky to even get 4 hours. I have a mind that thinks and processes best when I am just laying down. I thin some of my dreams are the product of my brain attempting to sort out all kind of information. A few nights ago, I had an awful nightmare that I had failed out of school and lost sight of my goals...but within the nightmare some revelations came about that I do not intend to share at the moment. These were things I had been contemplating for a while and made some amazing realizations. So, I guess not all of the dream was bad. Anyways, I was last night for two hours and made another realization that even when I do get down time (like now), I feel a need to remain busy. My down time rarely lasts long. Maybe, I should take some advice and spend one of these summer Saturdays reading a book outside and soaking up the sun! I know that I will have some opportunities to go home early from work and school...maybe I will go home and find time for my niece this summer...just the two of us in the backyard on a nice summer day! Even when I graduate, I will still be working, unless by some miracle I marry a VERY wealthy man, or being a mom to someone (my kids or assisting in some way to the rearing of other children...or even people...more on that philosophy later). I am not making sense anymore but it makes sense to me. Maybe it is a sign to go to bed soon?
I promised in the last blog (or two) to talk of my exercise progress. Funny it should be mentioned, simply due to the fact that the Sunday School lesson at church was on Provident Living and included a challenge to improve our physical health throught proper diet and exercise. Does walking at work count? Because I do. I walk up and down aisles to pick orders and stock items. I think it counts! Anywho, the other day I timed myself for a 1k run (I know...only running 0.62 miles is not impressive, but I have start somewhere, right?). According to my iPod I am averaging a 12 minute mile, which I am not happy about I would love 10 minutes or less. My time for my first 1k was 7 minutes and 57 seconds. I plan on being in the 6 minute range by mid-May *crosses fingers.*
Okay, now it is definitely time for bed. I will catch you all later!
P.S. Can I just say, having a former student of mine text me after she read previous blog about my woes with colorguard made my day! She sent a great one too and I still have it!
Sunday, April 15, 2012
Different Sources of Inspiration
I promise today is not a teen drama on mTV inspiration day. I woke up to the Sunday coming through my window and it made me happy. I do love rain. It reminds me of Oregon. However, while I was driving to a meeting today, I noticed that everything was turning green and flowers (and weeds) are starting to bloom. I was excited! Spring is around the corner. Now, this raises the question...is the snow gone for good? Probably not but I can hope right?
So, while driving I turned off the music and just watched my surroundings. I felt as though Spring is one of those renewal seasons. Everything is new and fresh. I feel as though that is where my life is going. I am going into the end of term, I have a job, I have many plans for life and many goals that I have set within the last few days.
I have had issues with how I look for a while. I recently put on a bit more weight than I would like and have decided, with the recent shift in weather, I may start to go running. I am lucky that my iPod has a mile tracker! I just updated all my music and plan to start an exercise program. In fact tomorrow I will start tracking everything on my blog too! I have a pretty big goal in mind, but I don't want to say anything about it yet...some of you may guess it relatively quickly but for those who don't I will let you in on the secret tomorrow, if all goes well.
I will keep things simple for now and just say that this is the first goal I am working on. Until tomorrow, I bid you all a good night!
So, while driving I turned off the music and just watched my surroundings. I felt as though Spring is one of those renewal seasons. Everything is new and fresh. I feel as though that is where my life is going. I am going into the end of term, I have a job, I have many plans for life and many goals that I have set within the last few days.
I have had issues with how I look for a while. I recently put on a bit more weight than I would like and have decided, with the recent shift in weather, I may start to go running. I am lucky that my iPod has a mile tracker! I just updated all my music and plan to start an exercise program. In fact tomorrow I will start tracking everything on my blog too! I have a pretty big goal in mind, but I don't want to say anything about it yet...some of you may guess it relatively quickly but for those who don't I will let you in on the secret tomorrow, if all goes well.
I will keep things simple for now and just say that this is the first goal I am working on. Until tomorrow, I bid you all a good night!
Saturday, April 14, 2012
MTV inspriation?
Yes, you read the title correctly. I was recently watching a show that was hosted by the MTV network. Nope, it is not the old MTV with just music videos. The current, teenage t.v. drama that airs every season. It is about a girl that blogs daily about her musings and we, the audience gets to see how her thoughts play out. It seems odd and boring or just uninteresting, but just hear out my thoughts. I will continue with the synopsis of the said show...
It starts with the social outcast acknowledging she, in fact, is the social outcast of not just her school, but her community. She ends up receiving a nasty letter telling her she should disappear because she is that much of a nobody. What the villain did not anticipate was taking the advice that followed after such a nasty statement. The letter told her if she disappeared no one would notice and that she should follow the list given to her in the letter. Now, the main character is taking charge of her life and blogging about it. But it sorts out her thoughts and she explains why she hates high school but not herself (necessarily). Again, I know it is a stupid teen drama but it made me think of something that has inspired me a bit.
In one episode, she figured out that a popular guy liked her because she decided to be herself and act least act like she didn't care (even though through all her musings, she very much did). It made me think about a lot of things. My ramblings don't ever really make sense...at least not to anyone else. But I am pretty sure that I don't care anymore.
I want to write blogs just to sort out my thoughts and figure out life. It has been super confusing recently and I know how I want to approach it. However, I feel it is far too complicated to try and explain what is going through my mind at the moment. Although that does contradict my goal. All I am going to divulge for now is that there is a big chance that you will see a new blog post everyday this week.
It starts with the social outcast acknowledging she, in fact, is the social outcast of not just her school, but her community. She ends up receiving a nasty letter telling her she should disappear because she is that much of a nobody. What the villain did not anticipate was taking the advice that followed after such a nasty statement. The letter told her if she disappeared no one would notice and that she should follow the list given to her in the letter. Now, the main character is taking charge of her life and blogging about it. But it sorts out her thoughts and she explains why she hates high school but not herself (necessarily). Again, I know it is a stupid teen drama but it made me think of something that has inspired me a bit.
In one episode, she figured out that a popular guy liked her because she decided to be herself and act least act like she didn't care (even though through all her musings, she very much did). It made me think about a lot of things. My ramblings don't ever really make sense...at least not to anyone else. But I am pretty sure that I don't care anymore.
I want to write blogs just to sort out my thoughts and figure out life. It has been super confusing recently and I know how I want to approach it. However, I feel it is far too complicated to try and explain what is going through my mind at the moment. Although that does contradict my goal. All I am going to divulge for now is that there is a big chance that you will see a new blog post everyday this week.
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
Things Are Looking Up?
I know that Friday's blog was kind of depressing. I think things are going to get better though. I have been working on my resume and caught a huge mistake on it! Hopefully, this will help me set things right by getting a job! I know that there are a few grocery stores hiring and (hopefully) with my previous experience in a grocery store I can find a steady job. Jamie says BlueHost is hiring for part-time positions too! I will be speaking with her tomorrow! I am actually rather excited to start working again. No I am not giving up Springville yet. I am trying to sort through some of thoughts about Springville which I will address in a different blog.
I am so close to getting my room in order and potentially having the storage area in the house close to being free of my stuff (well, most of my stuff). I get some distractions, such as homework (okay so it is not a distraction) and the prospect of a new job but other than that I feel I am just plugging away.
I hope to have my Summer schedule and Fall schedule planned out soon too! I plan on posting a lot in the next few days! I feel okay at the moment.
I am so close to getting my room in order and potentially having the storage area in the house close to being free of my stuff (well, most of my stuff). I get some distractions, such as homework (okay so it is not a distraction) and the prospect of a new job but other than that I feel I am just plugging away.
I hope to have my Summer schedule and Fall schedule planned out soon too! I plan on posting a lot in the next few days! I feel okay at the moment.
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