I Know What's Right, So Why Do I Hesitate?

I have had a lot to think about in the past year, such as where should I go in life, who I need to talk to things about, etc. Recently I have been having this same experience with a friend. I have prayed a lot about it and knew the answer as to what to do a while ago, but never really followed it. Then, I realized why I never did follow that feeling. I could lose everything. Granted I could gain everything too. But that is what gets me...I know this is what God wants me to do. I know there will be a little bit of hurt, but I know it is the right thing to do and I have known for a while. So, why am I such a wimp and get scared? I know the Devil is working so hard against me. I know this is one of his little games, so why do I allow him to do this to me?

Life is frustrating sometimes.

My Frustration with Plato's Closet...

As some of my readers know, I have been sick with either strep or bronchitis (most likely bronchitis, but I am waiting on a strep test). So, I was stuck in my room all week, except to attend classes for finals and new summer block classes. Today my fever has been holding steady at 100.0, so I decided today would be the day I venture out of my apartment for things not school or doctor related!!! All week I have been sorting through clothes to see what I could sale at Plato's Closet. For those who don't know, Plato's Closet is a store that buys clothes from people and then re-sales them for way cheap. So, I gathered all my clothes that I don't wear, no longer fit, or no longer care for and headed over!! I came in, went through the usual filling out of forms and such then was told I would have to wait 20 minutes for them to go through them. I stood there and waited...waited...waited..and noticed the girls got to my pile of clothes, went through and proceeded to fold them, then called me over. What happened next made me frustrated and I am sorry if it came off as mean, but I was trying to prove a point...

Girl: I'm sorry. We can not take any of your clothes today because we are looking for a certain label and a certain brand. Plus, you're clothes are a little too mature for teenagers.

Me: Funny, because your website says 'Clothes for Pre-teens, teens, and twenty somethings." Is that false?

Girl: Well, no but we target the very early twenties and these are more for the mid- to late twenties!

Me: Doesn't twenty something mean anybody in there twenties, so even mid- to late twenties?

Girl: Well, yeah but we target early twenties because we have more teenage style clothing!

Me: Because that is what you selected, so it is biased on your part.

Girl: ...

Me: ...and which brand are you looking for anyways?

Girl: *quietly* Popular teenage brands.

Me: So, because I choose not to be popular and actually look a bit more sophisticated than most girls, I can't sell anything here?"

Girl: ...

Me: ...and because I could not nor will I ever be able to or want to spend $100 dollars on Abercromie Jeans because that is a common brand I see here, you will not buy my clothes?

Girl: *sheepishly* um, no.

Me: Funny because your website says I can bring in any brand, any style and receive money on the spot, even for books and DVDs too, but those get rejected as well.

Girl: *embaressed* um, sorry, no.

Me: So, I just wasted my week sorting through clothes, wasted gas coming here, and wasted my time standing here because you advertise a "we give you money on the spot for your clothes" policy?

Girl: ...um, yes.

Me: Wow! I'll go to wandering wardrobe. At least their website says they will check brands and give almost 20% more in cash than what you guys give.

I walk out of the store with all my clothes in hand...and so did everyone else waiting.

I feel bad now for embaressing the girl, but I was so frustrated. Yes, their website says if it is older than 12-24 months it is out of style, so I put some things in that were about 18-24 months old because I wasn't sure, but come on. Anything else that was newer she just checked the label and put it aside. So, I have to be popular, wear teenage style clothes and shop at expensive stores to sell my clothes later? That is ridiculous. Advertise what you want not that you get money on the spot for your clothes.

Maybe, wandering wardrobe in Springville will give some results. I just don't want to go all the way to Springville.

A Missing Heather Moment

"Because I knew you, I have been changed for good!" This quote is from Wicked and it was Heather's favorite!

"We are not sad for the time we had, nor are we sad for the time we will have. Instead we are sad that we must go on and exist without them."

"...when my spirits falter
on decaying alters,
and my illusions fail
I go on right then.
I go on again.
I go on to say
'I will face another day'
if I still go on..."
~Blue Knights Drum and Bugle Corp Pre-show Corp song

Yeah, I miss Heather like crazy right now. But my best friend, Brian says it's normal to miss someone that close to you even several years down the road (she passed away in October, but because of her death so many people lived).

You Know You're From the Northwest When...

1. It's 90 degrees Fahrenheit outside and that is deemed way too hot.
2. Anything above 80 degrees Fahrenheit is too hot.
3. You cry because the cloudless sky is too blue and not white or grey enough.
4. Utah water is just plain nasty.
5. You are still shocked to see a Mormon church building on every street in Utah and yet wonder where all the Mormon churches are when in the Northwest.
6. You look at other trees and say "look I found a bush!"

Yeah! Way too hot here in Utah!

Wednesday Craziness!!!

I don't understand why my Wednesdays are always so crazy. Today, I got out of class early, so I am taking a break from studying and doing homework to show how busy my Wednesday actually is. Once I finish this blog I will go back to doing homework and studying! I think I will finish all of this weeks worksheets so that I don't have to worry about after today. Then I get to work on two (yes, two) portfolios, one of which is due Friday! Then I will go take a test, throughly clean more of my room, work on my novel (1,000 more words today) and look for some employment. I guess this week is going to be rather busy. But that's what keeps me out of trouble, right? ;) You know, I wouldn't have it any other way!

My Next Project...

I have had a goal for the past little while to write a novel and get it published. I am not going for anything spectacular. I am not expecting to produce a New York Times Bestseller book. I just think it would be fun to write a book (or two...or more if I decide to make it a series) and get it published. But, I am a perfectionist and being as such I am going to want it editted like no other. I am taking a friends advice and just write until I have nothing else to write and then go through and do a self-editting. Then, I should hand out a few copies to people I trust for some more extensive editting and, if I get lucky enough to have an agent or a publisher or editor, have even more editting done. It will take a lot of work and be a long process, but trust me when I say I want to do this. I have a few goals. Tonight, plan on starting it and reaching 1,000 words! I want to have a basic draft that I have promised to two people already by August 31st, but we'll see if I reach that goal with school and job hunting. Like I said, a new project for me to take on...

Here we go!

Note: I may post quotes and small excerpts form my story on here from time-to-time...or I may create a new blog altogether...I will keep everyone posted!