30 Days To Bran [Day 1 - 30DTB]

I know I have posted a video of his before, but he has asked me to help. For those who did not see the last video I posted here, I will give you a run down...he is an author to a series and book 2 is coming out soon. He is trying very hard to be a New York Times bestseller, so he is doing a vlog for 30 days until the release of Bran Hambric 2 on 10/10/10. I think I let him do the explaining!...

Life is unfair sometimes...

Sara's mom, Susan has been having a rough time of it lately (for obvious reasons). I decided to go look at Heather's facebook page and this is what her mom wrote the day of the viewing for Sara...

Hi Heather, I am sure that you and Sara have been together now. How I too have longed for your joy and laugh. When I went to see Susan Raymond, I knew exactly how she felt. She asked how I did it. As Aunt Laura said "You have no choice" I am going to have Aunt Laura call her later in the week. I keep telling myself it is just a moment in time and then we will be together. But somedays are very very long. I went through all the pictures of all the family and I am so thankful for all the of them. That is what you have to rely on is the family you are with.

Yeah. When my friend's and I saw Heather's mom come to the viewing and funeral, Cory said something..."life is unfair sometimes. To lose two important people in less than 10 months in our lives is difficult, and we still have other trials to face. Somedays I wonder if it is all worth it." After he said that, the group of us that have lost both Heather and Sara just had a group hug and could not let go of each other for the longest time while we all just cried.

 

Now fast forward to present day. Cory got a hold of me a few days ago asking about a girl interested in joining his winterguard team. We got to talking and understood that even though "time heals all wounds" no one ever specified how much time. He started school around the same time as me after not being in college for about 4 years. We had a very nice conversation and realized that this year, any teaching positions we get are for the ones we loved and lost, the people who gave us their undying support (and still do) and never ceased to love us and if we get any chance to perform, we will not take it for granted.

Life is unfair and we have to live with it... 

September what?

I can't believe September is here. I am actually kind of excited about it though. August was such a difficult month and I just want to put all the troubles, heartbreaks and worries I had behind me. Fresh new start of a new month!!

I finally have peace in the apartment, for now at least. I guess it was the fact that my landlady finally got a hold of someone in the apartment to solve it. I know some people are still angry with me but when the youngest person in the apartment is the only one taking action to solve this matter in a respectful way that is concerning.

I almost have all the classes I need this term. Once I get off the waiting list I can post my schedule (it's a busy one).

Alright, time for bed.

Long Day...Please NO more drama...

I know. I am posting a venting style blog today, but it really has been one of those days. I was up at 6am this morning. A friend of mine is serving in the US Marine Corp and he would his designated internet time when the sun comes up in the morning (Afghanistan has a different time zone in case some of you didn't know...hehe). While getting ready for my 8am Ballet class I multi-tasked cleaning and chatting with this friend. Then I went to school at 7:30am and stayed there until 5:30pm due to classes, placement issues and auditions. I came home and just wanted to eat and relax. I did for a time but was faced with two roommates complaining about my roommate that has just moved in on Saturday. Then they kept judging her and noticing that I wouldn't. Then I just had my roommate Phoxay (pronounced poe-sigh) just talked me and noticed that everone is on edge and she (Phoxay) does not have Christ-like feelings not necessarily for the new roomate but just in general. I have never seen her be this nervous and anxious before. I just need to calm down and try not to get in the middle of things. Pray that things work out better.

Saying Goodbye Was Never Easy...pt. 2

As many of you know, on Saturday I went to the funeral of a dear friend to say goodbye (for now). This upcoming weekend, I say goodbye to another. My best friend is moving back to California. He tried so hard to stay but fell just a little bit short. He now feels that he must go back home for a time to work. He has a place to stay (practically for free) and can work for his landlady until he finds work. He says he may not be back in Utah for a long while (at least a year but we are both hoping it is shorter than that). On Saturday evening, I am taking him to the train station so that he hop on the 11:30pm train back to Sacramento. We are both dreading that night. Neither of us are very good at saying goodbye. He doesn't want to leave me here (he is concerned about the timing of his leaving and how it will affect me).

We both made several promises to each other though. We would go to each others wedding receptions (and if I am married first each others sealings! although he does promise to be there for mine anyways) and that we would keep in contact all the time (via text, calls or skype) and we are working on putting a youtube channel together (shh...that's a secret...) among other promises. Yeah. Not my favorite of weeks.

Saying Goodbye Was Never Easy...

I am usually so excited and grateful that I made it through the week to enjoy a wonderful weekend. However, I must face a weekend similar to what I faced 10 months ago. In under a year I have had to say goodbye to two people that have impacted me in so many ways. Tomorrow I say goodbye and Saturday those of us who have lost these two will celebrate Sara, then, if we can, we will travel down I-15 to visit the teacher that gave her life 10 months ago...our beautiful Heather.

Now, there are certain people (I will not mention any names) who feel that I want to suffer alone and therefore refuse to talk about. This is for all of you...I write to deal but not always publicly and quite honestly I with hold a lot of information from everybody. I don't want to suffer alone (no one does) but I deal in a different way. I am not going to apologize if it seems as though I suffer alone. I put on a strong face and get everyone else through this before I even consider my own feelings. Its habit. I am not going to apologize for how I cope and deal with things. I am more complicated than I think any of you think. Saying goodbye is never easy and, unfortunately I have had to do it more than twice in the last 12 months and have had to do it at least 5 times in the last 24 months but I don't tell any of you who think I suffer alone because then everyone would worry and think I was "driving for attention." I deal then I try to move on. Only a select few know how much I have lost in the last 24 months. I don't tell the world and I am sorry if that offends you. Now, please don't abandon me because of it.

The rest of you whom this does not apply too thank you! Note there are so many who do not know who or what I have lost and how difficult the last year has been but the paragraph above may not apply to you so some of you don't need to worry.

I love you all!

Zombie Unicorn Guitar Swords

This is my friend Kaleb Nation. I made a promise to him a while ago that I would help him as much as I can with his book! He is writing a series and is about to release the second installment in the series, so if you're interested go find his first book "Bran Hambric: The Farfield Curse" and read it, then pre-order his second book "Bran Hambric: The Specter Key!" He's a cool guy and will be doing a book tour in Salt Lake for all those that are interested. Go check him out on youTube as well at www.youtube.com/kalebnation.