Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Frustration followed by confusion

First of all, stop being such a hypocrite. You tell me you get frustarted because of something I said and then you say it right back to me AND got mad because I called you on it. That is not cool. Second, I know you are mad at me and when I decide to sit down with you to talk about it, you blow me off. I want to fix this. I know you are mad at me. I can see it. Anytime, I decide to open my mouth you roll your eyes, scowl at me, and then make snappy remarks (or ignore me). If you have a problem with me then tell me so that we can resolve this together. Is that too much to ask for? Before all this happened you would be so excited to invite me on walks with you, you wanted to always talk to me and invite me to events. Now, I feel like you feel obligated to do anything with me...almost like it is a burden. I don't even know what I did wrong.

*sigh* I am frustrated. I am having problems with a roommate who just so happens to be as stubborn as I am. I think she hold grudges longer than I do though and I don't know why.

I am also VERY confused. I so want to do drum corp this year and have the potential of receiving a scholarship from UVU and BYU because of drum corp, but Mom is pressuring me to get a job this summer because Mom and Dad will not be able to support me if I don't. It's a scholarship. I am confused. My heart is telling me to march, but my Mom is telling me to work.

Somedays, I hate having to make difficult decisions.

3 comments:

MarieC said...

Welcome to being an adult. Not fun all the time, is it! You'll make the right choice! Love you.

Michele Sekaquaptewa said...

Well, you did mention a POTENTIAL scholarship. Key word: potential. You might not get the scholarship thus proving mom's point of needing to find a job. Plus, you should be working and saving money in this tough economy. It's hard to not do something you love, but sometimes you have to sacrifice.

Dorm Bedding said...

I agree with MariaC...you definitely made the right choice :)